Other Poems by:

David McLean

the terrible insentience of waves, stones, and me

are waves tortured by the writhing
life inside them, the scaly weight
that foams them sometimes

between the rising of the sun and
the dying of the night?
are years tortured by the dying lives

behind them, the slow closing
of the blinded eyes that saw
a saviour in some whoreson heaven,

and the authoritative coming of god
the good author and auditor of the self's
pity seedily spilt on the heart's lonely sheets

like cum? waves and years are insentient,
my dear, they couldn't give or not give
a fuck, waves and things don't actually live

or think. they're like stones or christians, thick
as two short planks, or like me
when i drink.

the pyre

the terrible pyre where man immolated
his childhood smokes black death
to the mourning sky like a cancer
and an amnesia.

i never had anything to throw there,
for my father's bones were scraped together
and thrown to the sky years before
where some of them stuck,

but i cannot reach them today.
they wait for me and nothing,
maybe, but i looked for God in my pocket
and it was empty,

except for you and dust and fluffy stuff
to make a drunken painless pizza tasty
and rape a memory that tempts me
to forget it;

for life's lesson is a forgetfulness and
release paired with a desperate retention
and re-collection the exact opposite
of memory,

herding the lives and the found times that are
there in eternally Being's fucked field like leaves
on the dead trees that bleed days into
our lazily waiting fingers.

such a masturbatory mourning that waits for us,
since so many are dead already. it makes me
a bit self-congratulatory, really, surviving through sheer
evil fucker's luck. it makes it very hard

to give a fuck.

self-injury

wrist rest words
risted on breast
subtle script slashed
the stitch is
the amanuensis
in time tonight
life reclines on
the logos
gone

rumoured rouns
round us
romans we are
tonight
renouncing secret
counsel
in camera, man
Saxon sasser

the Norse nors
a nurse-hound
nourishes the nursing
of, of course,
par for the coarse
the forgotten
thought

parity pares my
paternity mere
further father
narrer nothing naught
wyrds faught
taught words we
caught

evil, be thou my pizza

the figurative bliss a heaven is
re-corded our thews and sinews
threw feeble thought back
to the bought bough
glowering over the tree of needy
meaning, bower that menaced the feckless
waters where the naughty daughters of
seedy jesus, that brought us love
he stole from the Jews
in his ultimate lusting USURA
dirty as daylight that comes again
in a poem and clean as free-thrusting
Saigon resurrected just
love, and kittens this,
thus to trust in,
the innocence, bliss, is crime
and complacent, complicitous, thus
arrogant in the slaughter, blood-
spattered walls of mourning, amity maybe,
feeble thought taught us, screamin' Jesus'
feebler,
daughters, the Sisters of Mercy
re-member me, memory,
love us not,
enough

a dead calf in the vile Isis

i punted sometimes
on the Isis, like everyone else,
that's what you did the
when you were drunk

and summer. obviously there were swans
coloured like clayish shit, and ducks
and all that sort of happy
stuff

but what i remember best is
the corpse of a calf, or small cow,
floating as were it now
on the rain-swollen flood

behind my eyes, one leg raised silent
accusation to sighing heaven, the
indeterminate summer sky, and flailed
painfully slow, its dead resolved

motion in the faceless waters. so we
punted clumsily over, obviously, to
poke it, (nineteen year olds are children
too) and we just wanted to watch it

roll its stretched sorrow, a memory
the agony of its life in the green meaning
under the dreaming trees, but the
fucker just sort of fell apart,

and the disparate bits of the dismemberment
rolled slow back to the darkness of the
waters and to life's blind eye
that never saw the dying.

the dead calf turned its painful way
again to the future, and the fate that
awaited it, conceivably
a kebab in London,

conceivably gaily decaying nothing.
and even we shall be that calf someday -
falling slowly apart to mud and
amnesiac meaning, thus.

we shall be him or her,
death's son or daughter,
however studiously we avoid 
the touch of our natures -

though death is painless,
our meaty erasure
that waits us
may not be evaded

nor should it -
basically,
we're fucked

homework

love scattered day

fragmentary lesson

 

a text is a bidet

to wash the arse of time

 

and memory, the sun has piles

today, and awaits

 

Nothing, its love a statue

and a statutory drug

 

that replaces us.

it is fun

 

and torture. night is done

already, and history

 

is love and meaning

and the Otherís fumbling touch

 

is incest and Godís black sun

is done

mourning pyjamas

you wear mourning like pyjamas

already, and history is a ribbon in your hair

where ghosts go, uncaring

 

there, the fragile protention that projects us

nothing. light clutters this pavement

dusty as love,

 

the cast plaster that holds us

whole and memory

daily

 

remains. the remainder that copes

with copious coffins, the departed therein

filled with duty

 

and dutyís dereliction. depiction

if truth. nights come

and days go lonely

 

their callous replacements

in this hallowed ground

loud the shallow coffin

 

that lies us. inside are dreams

and obscene reason, meaning

the moon is lonely as a star

 

tonight one where rats are

evil. fantasies replicate ruthless

dirges here

 

where elegies are cripples

for crippled Man

though God understands.

 

He lives happiest in kittens

his belief, and is a fish. His Son loves Him

and us.

 

night is pain today and day

is silent night, black as a sun if a sun were

white, darkness visible and bright.

 

so what is this, the fish

that records our blisses, missing kisses

ďantinomyĒ she answers me.

matutinal ablution

we wash ourselves in light tonight

that cursory ablution, mourning

 

matutinal, a God-box with dreams in

obscure as reason, a nipple

 

listens, dialectics qua truth deceptively lenient

its leniently deceptive shit

 

waters our weakness, insolent to dream belief

the placatory lie that is the

 

missive God has given us, Miss,

his bow coloured sluttish with hopeful lust

 

for we are full of needy meat

and the grave is full of dust

 

the veins are full of godding drugs

and the heart full of Nothing

 

and love

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